His love for me is SCANDALOUS

I heard somewhere that God's love for me is scandalous.
I love it!
And quite frankly someones love has to be...thank you, God.

I have gone out of Stacie Comfort Zone and gone on a few dates these past few months with different men (I know, I know...scandalous). These men are not right for me but have shown me that these past years of pain have been filled with teaching moments and growth for me. I am not completely free of being attracted to the broken quite yet, but I am much better at recognizing red flags, getting the uh-oh feelings much sooner and knowing when to say hell no.

There are things I need to work on. And I am and I will. But there are things I still don't understand (and I guess these things make me judging - a word I despise). So men, specifically those of you I have dated since January or perhaps am still dating - these questions/thoughts are for you:

Why do you say you are going to call at a specific time and then don't? Do you mean to and honestly forget or am I just that unimportant? I work with real business men and women every day. Do you think I can't handle an honest conversation about us not dating anymore? Get over yourself. I don't have time for games...except for real games like cards or Clue or Twister if your so inclined.

Kids. Lets get something straight right now. I love kids. I thought I would have kids. I don't. I understand (I really do, you don't have to break it down for me) that time with your children is important and a priority. Please just tell me when you'd like to spend time with me. I am a planner and a little bit of a worrier - don't keep me guessing. If you didn't want to be with your kids...I probably wouldn't want to be with you!

One night stands and friends with benefits. I thought I could do both and turns out I can do neither. Sorry to disappoint if that is what you were looking for in me.

I can only be me...but I need to let you be you.