Each year instead of a New Year's Resolution I choose a word; a word I try to live by, achieve, pray about, desire for myself. October is around the corner. I reflect on my 2012 word.
Peace.
Inner peace. Peace with God. Peace with myself. Peace of mind.
One thing I have learned these past few years is that when I select a word - God makes me work for it; 2010 was cleanse and 2011 was joy. I misplaced my joy and learned a hard lesson last year. I tried to find joy through another human being instead of through God first and then myself. Not only did I fall hard, I kept going back for more. There was no joy until I figured out where unconditional love really comes from and that is the only place true joy really exists.
As for peace, I am curious to see how the year will end. I tend to have high expectations, be full of hope and have full-on faith about relationships, job stuff, friendships...all things really... and then get really disappointed by someone or something and crash. This does not bring inner peace. I love my faith in people and love is always restored, but my heart is getting tired.
I am letting go, letting God, and letting peace of mind take over. He has a plan for me. And it is good.
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